. . . or did I?
It has been said to me by some, and suggested by others, that I did not choose this life, that I did not opt for my current life circumstances.
Those statements have caused me to step back and really consider: Did I choose this life? This life that consists of becoming a widow at 41, of being a single parent who is solely responsible for every single decision and who now has to juggle family, work, school, sports, activities, home life, and life stresses, etc. on my own -- Did I choose this life?
I can say with certainty that those options were not on any "Life Goals" list that I have ever seen or written; but does the fact that I've never specifically said, "I want to be a widowed, single mom." mean that I didn't choose this life?
I've felt compelled to look deeper at what I did choose (and do choose) for life goals . . .
- Many years ago, I told God that I wanted His Will for my life, whatever that may be. That was a choice I made.
- More times than I could count, I asked God to work His Will in my marriage. I chose that request.
- I have sung songs - and meant them from my heart - about surrender to whatever God has for me. I sing those words willingly.
A couple of other things that I had to consider as I was pondering:
- I believe that God has a plan.
- When circumstances are beyond my control, I am still trusting that they are under God's control.
So . . . In summary, my conclusion is this:
God has a plan, and He is in control. He has ordered my circumstances.
I choose to submit to His plan and surrender to His control. . .
I Choose This Life!
Psalm 143:8 Cause me to hear thy lovingkindness in the morning; for in thee do I trust: cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; for I lift up my soul unto thee.