Thursday, November 14, 2013

A Time Like No Other

Little by little, I am seeing the confusion return. 

Trent sleeps more and more and, at times, is harder to wake from sleep to give him his meds.

Some days, the increasing weakness is very noticeable.

Some of the staff are concerned at what they see, but then they don't know what to think when I tell them that we've been through worse before . . . .

These are the things that are hard to watch.  I never know if I am seeing a temporary low or if this is a true decline.

I have no choice but to trust that God has a plan and that He will work it in His time.

As uncertain as each day may feel, it is comforting to know that God holds each moment in His control.

Each day truly is a gift. 

There were changes for the kids this week.  My sister needed to go home to her own family.  I chose to split the kids and put them in homes where I felt they would have the best fit.  They weren't sure about my choices when I told them initially, but they are doing well.  I miss them.  Seeing them for a few minutes each day is not the same as being home with them.  I know this is not forever, but it is still hard.

As hard as this phase of life has been, it has also provided opportunities for reflection that I would have been otherwise too busy to take.  I don't know if words will ever be able to adequately describe all that life is and has been over the past few months.  As I sit here next to Trent, I can focus on the blessings that we often take for granted. 

No matter the circumstances, it is beyond any doubt that we are blessed; and I am thankful.

8 comments:

  1. Elizabeth, you have been on my heart lately. Please know that you and your family are in my prayers as you walk thru this valley! ~Kimberly (your 'WATW' sister)

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  2. Any words I think of to write seem so inadequate. I want you to know that you, Trent, and your kids are in my prayers daily.

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  3. We are praying Elizabeth!! You have been such a strong testimony through all of this. Just know that we here in CT have you, Trent, and your children during all of these trials!!!

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  4. It seems like God has given you a measure of "new grace." Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with us. Keep on looking up and pressing on, Elizabeth!
    Love you!!!!

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  5. Elizabeth, we are praying for all of you. Thank you for your beautiful testimony of God's grace and wisdom. Chuck and Carol Hastings

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  6. Thank you again for sharing your heart. We are praying for you and Trent and your children! May God continue to bring amazing blessings your way!!

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  7. He giveth more grace when the burdens grow greater, He sendeth more strength when the labors increase, To added affliction He addeth His mercy, To multiplied trials, His multiplied peace.

    His love has no limit, His grace has no measure, His power no boundary known unto men, For out of His infinite riches in Jesus, He giveth and giveth and giveth again.

    When we have exhausted our store of endurance, When our strength has failed ere the day is half-done, When we reach the end of our hoarded resources, Our Father’s full giving is only begun.

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  8. Elizabeth,
    What is it you need? How can I help? Meal, help with the kids, whatever... Think about it and let me know. Your family is in our thoughts and prayers everyday.

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