The last several days were marked by consistent decline. The delirium had returned. Trent's overall condition was very much like the day I brought him to the hospital at the end of October. (End in Sight) There were also new issues that we did not deal with back then.
I let our pastor know. I called family. I sat with him - watching and listening. I watched for signs of discomfort because he wasn't able to articulate what he was feeling. I listened to his breathing. I listened to his words, most of which stemmed from the delirium. I tried to calm his frustrations that were coming from the strange messages his brain was sending him.
Yesterday was definitely a more difficult day. I knew we were incredibly close to the end. I did my best to keep him comfortable. The kids came for a brief visit.
I sat by his side during the night. I dozed off here and there. About 6:20 this morning, I was suddenly awake. I knew. Trent's suffering is finished. He rests in the arms of his Savior.
I called my pastor, and we made plans for meeting with the kids. There simply is no easy way to have that conversation, but it went as well as could be expected. I am grateful far beyond words for the incredible support of our pastor and his wife.
So far today, it has been all about the details. There are still many details to which I need to attend.
God has shown His incredible goodness and grace through all of this, including the timing and surrounding circumstances. He is good!
Thank you so much for all of your prayers.
Praying for tremendous comfort.
ReplyDeleteLove, Francie
2 Cor. 1:3-4
Thank you for giving us a glimpse into the reality of your journey these past several months. We'll keep you in our prayers.
ReplyDeletePraying for you. Peace to you.
ReplyDeleteAnd its all because of God's amazing Grace! Because on Calvary's mountain He took my place, And some day, some glorious morning I shall see Him face to face, All because of God's amazing Grace.
ReplyDeleteElizabeth, this is the time when God's amazing, perfect wonderful grace will envelop you! God will be your mainstay through this, You have been so strong through the whole thing and now I will continue to pray that you will let others around you carry you as you carried Trent through to the end. Praying!!!!!
Becky Girdner
Our family will be praying. Your transparency through your blog has been an instrument of instruction and grace to all of us watching from the sidelines of your trial. Our hearts hurt for those precious children as they face Christmas without their sweet daddy, and the pain of our sympathy will be a constant reminder to pray, pray, pray for your family. It will also be a reminder of why we celebrate this season. Trent could shout it back to us from heaven: We have a Savior!
ReplyDeleteElizabeth' i know you through Angela. My family will keep you and your children in our prayers through out the next few days and coming weeks.
ReplyDeleteAlison
I will keep you in my prayers. So sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteOh Elizabeth. "He rests in the arms of his Savior." tears. We have been praying and we will continue to pray for you and the kids.
ReplyDeleteOur family is praying for your family Elizabeth, peace, comfort and love to all of you.
ReplyDeletePraying for God's peace and comfort to surround you and your family during this time!
ReplyDeleteI am heartbroken for you and your family. I am praying God's peace and comfort will overwhelm you all, and that God will continue to draw you and others close to His heart.
ReplyDeletePraying for the Peace of God which passeth all understanding to be with you and your family.
ReplyDeleteThe loss you feel today will feel different later; but it never goes away. I will continue to pray for God to show you His daily plan for you. My children were grown, yours will need you more for awhile. Bless you from my widow's heart. Love, Margie White
ReplyDeleteI have been so touched by Trent's testimony and posts, as well as with your transparency during this difficult road. I'm so sorry for your loss. Continuing to pray for grace and peace that only God can give, and rejoicing with you that Trent is now healed.
ReplyDeleteI just saw this. Since we have mutual friends from PCC, I have been keeping up with you and your journey. I knew from your last post the end was near, and I have been praying for all of you constantly. As you enter this new phase in your life, I will continue to pray for you and your children.
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